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What You Do When No One’s Looking
I’m almost a year sober and a guy I’ve just met at an NA meeting invites me to coffee. He has five years and he reminds me of one of my favorite people back in my home city. He beats me to the coffee shop and orders water. He suggests going to a nearby park…
Back in Black
I’m sorry I’ve been gone for so long. Life happened and I didn’t feel inspired and now there is a Supernatural-shaped hole in my heart because I’ve finished all fifteen seasons. I think the blog has been a bit meandering so far, trying to find its sea-legs. But I’ve had an idea for how to…
Reach Out and Touch Someone
Today I both reached out and accepted others reaching out to me. I wrote lyrics with one of my clients at work. He was shy at first, dissing himself, “I’m not good at this.” I talked to him about how we judge ourselves so readily and how that stops us from expressing our creativity before…
Only If We Make It Back
Tonight I want to talk about relapse. Sometimes when you work with other women in recovery you lose one. (Sometimes = often, let’s be real). Relapse is a part of recovery; we are prone to repetition. It is my observation that there are certain never-fails in the relapse department. Of course there’s the trope of…
The Hawtness
Well we just went through a rough patch where my baby boy was possessed by the power of the Mark of Cain and the First Sword. Demon Dean was hot for the first few minutes of debauchery and I liked the Crowley pal-up but as the episodes wore on it was hard to maintain my…
Body Fluids
Omg my daughter just puked her fucking guts out, the bedding all twisted up and chunks and chunks, that greasy smear. She didn’t like, puke in one spot. She made multiple deposits—sheets, comforter, one of her plushies. I’m sure you can imagine what I’ve just been through. Note to self: buy gloves. So there’s a…
Ate the Other Half
Is it wrong that I find Lucifer kinda sexy? He’s such a dick, takes pleasure in his dickishness. I think I take pleasure in his pleasure. He’s no Dean though. Ultimately: no contest. My daughter got me a packet of all the necklaces from Supernatural for Xmas. Gonna be rocking a lot of pentagrams. I’m…
H.J. Sandwich
Praise jeebus I am a medium-to-high-functioning person today. At work I actually worked. I didn’t even make it through all my games. After work I noticed that one of my back tires looked flat. Fuuuuuuck. Not long ago in a preparatory mood I’d purchased a pressure gauge to keep in the car because I think…
Watching Paint Dry
I had planned to spend most of my day with Sam and Dean (Supernatural, duh) chasing ghosts and being chased by leviathans, but then a mob descended upon the White House. We are living so much history this year. I had that sense at the beginning of Covid: this is history happening. And the hits…
TV and Me
The day before yesterday I ate meat, just meat, for dinner. I had broiled a hunk of something bloody for my kids when they were here for our days and there was a plate of strips left over. So I sat on my couch watching Supernatural and didn’t even bother to cut. Strips of meat,…
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